WWTN # 13 - Manifesting

Aha! The lucky 13th transformational newsletter! ...

I had/have/am finishing up a full-time job at Northwestern University Library.

I have worked in libraries all my life, because I love the people who work in libraries.

I have been working on and building on my healing abilities since 1996, and I have a healing practice.

I realized it was time to move on from the job and concentrate on my healing practice, but I was allowing other people's fears (the fears of people in my life that I am close to) to get in the way of me taking the "leap" out of the library, and just to trust that my practice plus my creative editing business will carry me and will bring in earnings that I can live on.

So, I went the "safer" route of moving out of my full-time job in to a part-time job that was more in my realm of talents--in a Behavioral Optometrist's office, where I was being trained to be a vision therapist for a variety of patients with different vision issues. Ah, I thought, now this is more like it.

I knew it wasn't going to be forever, and that it wasn't the exact right "forever" thing yet, however the training was helpful for me and I figured I would also be helping people--so good for now at least--right?

So, the doc let me go today. After only about 2 and a half weeks in to the job.

Huh!

He said my own vision problem was getting in the way of me being able to communicate with patients the way the I was supposed to, within the realm of this vision therapy training program.

And you know, I thoroughly agree with him. I do not have the style of communication needed to fit within the realm of that program. I have my own style.

So where does this leave me?

I looked at the situation, right away, with eyes wide open. What was this really all about?

Confidence.

I was using that job as a crutch while I slowly crept out of my secure full-time job which, little by little, was squishing my soul (no offense to the other beautiful souls that work there, who I do love dearly).

I did not, a few weeks ago, have the confidence to just say, You know, I really am a healer, I really have these gifts to offer, and clients are flocking to me in droves!

All of the things I do know about myself but had a hard time admitting (yes, the good things)....these are the things that I can no longer hide. It is not fair to any bosses, nor to myself, for me to hide behind their vision of what a business should be. I have my own vision and ample talents.

I manifest confidence, and that nothing will ever prevent me from admitting what I do well.
In the name of confidence, I move forward.

Thank you for reading!